Dear Dad

Dear Dad,
          Before I say anything, I want to ask you something. Why? That is what I want to know. What did we do? What happened? I remember when I was younger; I would be so excited for you to come home from work. As soon as Joshua and I heard your car pull into the driveway, we would race to see who could give you a hug first. So what happened? Why did you do this to Mom, Jessica, Joshua and I? Do you think that it will not affect us? Joshua has to grow up without a father. You are just so mean now. When you started to change into this mean, bitter and cold hearted man, I never stood up for myself against you. I would just let you scream at me and take whatever harsh words you said to me and just let them soak into my head. I started to believe the things you were saying. I will never forget the one day, about 3 years ago. We got into a huge fight when it was just us home. I was scared of what you might do or say to me. Later that day is what meant a lot to me. You told me that you would always be here for me and that you would always back me up if I was in need. It meant a lot to me. Where are you now though? I have no idea. Remember that one day when I was in sixth grade and Jessie was in eighth grade and we were at the football game and you were at home? Well, you probably do not know that I know this, but I do. You called Jessie and yelled at her for twenty minutes telling her how terrible of a child she was because she put a fork in the dishwasher wrong. You told her that she was useless and she would never go anywhere in her life. That not only hurt her, it scarred her. Forever. On father’s day this year, you blamed me for "sabotaging" your TV when I was not even home. You just kept going and going on about it because you knew it would make me mad. And, well, I had had enough. I stood up for myself and told you to stop. This fight lasted for a good hour. You in turn told me that I would never go anywhere in my life, I am a joke, I am gross and no one would ever love me because of how screwed up I am and anyone who would come into my life will eventually just walk out. When you were telling me all of this nonsense, I had had an epiphany. I finally figured it out. You are jealous. You are mad because I am going to make myself a successful individual without you. I will be better than you. I will always be better than you. Well, I already am better than you and I always have been. I will never let myself fall as low as you did yourself. I always tried to help you Dad. When the world was beating down on you, I was always there for you and told you that everything would be okay, which it could have, if you would have let it, if you would have just let me help you. I tried to be not only the daughter that you wanted, but the friend I knew you needed. You use to be so tall and strong, like you could conquer the world. I admired that about you. The one thing that I did not like was how negative you were. How you never wanted to have any fun. With this all being said, I still want everyone to be happy. I wish for everyone to live a happy life. This includes you. So what are you waiting for? Fix it. You lost a strong wife, two beautiful daughters and a handsome some. What else will you lose? Hopefully nothing! Look in your heart. Find the light. Find the happiness and joy. Find the peace. But most importantly, find you. Do not look at your physical appearance, that will not get you very far. Look inside. I hope you find happiness. I hope you find what you are looking for. May you never take one single breath for granted. Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens. Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance. When you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance. If you are wondering, Mom, Jess, Josh and I are doing fantastic. Struggling financially a small bit, but we are making it. We are for once genuinely happy. Greater than ever. Once again, I hope you find happiness down this precious road of adventure we call life.  
                                                                                                  Love Your Daughter,
                                                                                                  Samantha

My inspiration.

There is one person who I really look up to. This one person happens to be my dearest mother, Joann Sarvas. She is my greatest inspiration. Throughout my life, my family his endured many struggles And she has always been our number one supporter. One of the more difficult challenges we had to face within the past six months is turn my father getting divorced. My dad is crazy. He always has been. Moved out in June and my dad is making things so hard I must in my mom has been so strong throughout it all. Even though she is going through this all, she still wakes up every morning with a smile on her face, ready to start a new day. My mom, she is the strongest woman I know and I love her with all of my heart!

If i could live anywhere

If I Could Live Anywhere

            It is very hard for me to pick one place to live if it was anywhere because that is one of my main goals to accomplish in life, to travel. I want to go to many places around the world, but even just places like Hawaii. A very LARGE goal is to visit every continent at least once. Of course I would like to go on more trip than that, but I am just waiting to see what the future holds for me. If it does not have a plan for me to travel, I will make it a plan for me to travel. Anyways, if I had to choose anywhere to live, I would choose anywhere on the coast of Australia. I have always wanted to visit Australia for several reasons. One reason is because it is beyond beautiful there. I want to go and feel the warm sand on the beach squish through my toes before I take a surf board and learn how to catch my first wave, while my pet kangaroo, Charles, is eating a bag of potato chips. I want to make friends that have awesome Australian accents. I want to meet a cute boy who surfs and has baby blue eyes. I want to sit in the ocean on a surf board on New Year’s Eve and watch fireworks with all of my friends. I want to travel the coast of Australia and surf some of the greatest places there like Byron Bay – northern New South Wales, Eaglehawk Neck – southeast Tasmania, and Kalbarri in Australia. I honestly think I was born on the wrong continent because I really want to be in Australia. If I could live anywhere, I would live in Australia. 

If money were no object.

I thought doing this project was an awesome experience. It really opened my eyes to all of the different ideas that could be use to benefit society. I think anyone who has a dream like these awesome individuals, should go out and fulfill any dream that a person could have. I think everyone should live out their dreams of helping others including myself.

A Child Called It

My Favorite Book

My favorite book is A Child Called It. This book was written by an amazing man named Dave Pelzer's. This was the first book that led to The Lost Boy and A Man Named Dave. I think Pelzer is such an amazing and strong man. I look up to him. He should be an inspiration to everyone. The three books I mentioned are all stories on his life. The first one, which is my favorite, A Child Called It, was about his younger childhood. It explains how he use to have an awesome, loving family, and how his mom turned. The stories he tells about his mom are very gut-wrenching and gruesome. It is only a story I could wish to never happen to anyone in the world. The story starts by running through a normal morning routine in Pelzer’s life. He begins his morning by cleaning the kitchen. He is forced to wash the dirty dishes in scolding hot water. If he stops and takes his hands out, his mother would scream at him and beat him. For breakfast, he was lucky to have the last few pieces of cereal out of his brother’s breakfast bowl. His mother has gone as far as stabbing him before. Despite his rough childhood with events continuing like the few events I mentioned, he grew up into a successful man. I admire him greatly. He is a walking, talking breathing example of what I would call a miracle. He shows that he is strong. He shows that he is independent. He is alive. He survived a terrible nightmare of a life which only made him stronger. To this day, even though there are so many gruesome scenes in this book, A Child Called It is my favorite book. It shows me that there is hope. That is the main lesson I got from this book. The one word and that is, “hope.”

Too Much.

Sometimes, too much of something can be too much. If someone is eager to do something, they do it all of the time and it gets old. If someone loves something, they let it go. If it comes back, it is meant to be. That can go for many things. Too much of anything can be too much. By using imagry, Robert Frost conveys something coming to end, and someone being exhausted.

            Sometimes, someone’s surroundings tell them that there is a certain kind of mood in the air and they tend to follow that mood. When a person is around something and it gives off a sad vibe, the person will tend to be sad. Like Frost said, “I cannot rub the strangeness from my sight/ I got from looking through a pane of glass/ I skimmed this morning from the drinking trough.” The season is coming to an end. It is getting cold and there is frozen water. Someone is sad that this is coming to an end. At the same time, another feeling is being conveyed.

            When someone does something for so long, they will get tired of it. Someone can only do something for so long before they get bored and tired. Frost said, “For I have had too much/ of apple picking: I am over tired/ of the great harvest I myself desired./ there were ten thousand fruit to touch/ cherish in hand, lift down, and not let fall.” A reader can tell that Frost is tired of what he is doing. He has had too much and he is over tired, but he once desired that great harvest. Is too much of a good thing too much?

            By using imagery, Frost conveys something coming to an end, and someone being exhausted. Even though someone might love an activity with all of their heart, if they do it all of the time, they will probably get bored, exhausted and overall done with that activity because they did it all of the time. Sometimes, too much of a good mechanism is too much. 

               

My MISTAKE.

Think of these quotes.

"I already gave my best. I have no regrets at all."

"There are no regrets in life, just lessons."

"I have no regrets about my life."

     I agree 100 percent with these quotes. I would not say that I regret anything in life because I feel like everything happens for a reason. While I may not have any regrets, I do know I have made many mistakes in my life. If I knew then what I know now, I would fix my mistakes, not my regrets. One mistake that I tend to make too often is to forgive a person too quickly I feel like this is a mistake because when I forgive someone too quickly, that usually give them the incentive that nothing ever happened and I am allowing them to walk all over me. They always tend to do the same exact mechanism again. I consider this a mistake rather than a regret because it will always be a learning experience. If I regretted it and I wanted it to have never happened, I would have never learned from it. That is why I do not use the choice of words, "what do you REGRET." I enjoy using MISTAKE instead.

Basketball, My Love.

     My favorite activity to do is to play basketball. Basketball is the only sport I really stuck to. I have done cheer leading, golf, shot-put and discus in track, and basketball. So, I have done some very diverse activities.  I really enjoyed pondering around in different sports and activities, such as crocheting. I also really enjoy camping, theater, being on the boat at the beach, or just going on joy rides on the boat. Well, back to basketball. I started playing when I was five years old on our  cardinal youth league. I played on that through forth grade. In fifth grade, I played for the Jr. Lady Cardinals travel team.Then in sixth grade, I had back surgery in November so I could not play that year. Then, I tried out in seventh and eighth grade and got cut. I was very upset. I always loved playing basketball. I am starting to play again, in hopes that I might play next year, senior year and throughout college. Even though I am not the typical tall basketball girl, I refuse to let that stop me from trying. I always loved the challenge basketball put you against. You have to be aggressive but not foul and you need to always be on your toes, ready to run down the court and catch a rebound if someone messes up and doesn't stop the ball from getting down there. I will prove that you can be short and still do an amazing job in this sport. I love basketball with all of my heart. Even if I am not on a team, it will always be a part of me.

My favorite band.

         All Time Low

Sparks The Rescue

My favorite band is Sparks the Rescue. They play alternative rock songs. I started listening to them after I want to a Red Jumpsuit Apparatus concert in May. I love their music because it is fun and gets you up and jumping around. I am married to the bass player, Mike Narran. Just like any other band, they do play some slow songs. They are just as amazing as an upbeat, fast pace, fun to dance to song. My absolute favorite song by Sparks the Rescue is We Love Like Vampires. It is a cute love song, but it fast pace and fun to listen to. The music video is very funny too. I could not choose which band to write about, so i am going to write about my second favorite band. This band is called All Time Low. Like Sparks the Rescue, All Time Low plays alternative rock music. I am planning to see them in concert on October 15th with a group of friends. My favorite song by them is Weightless. It is a fast pace song and also fun to listen to. I think it has a great meaning behind it as well. It is about just having fun and not taking things too seriously. I feel like I can relate to that. I like to have fun and not worry about little things that could bother me. It is never as fun to watch people have fun than it is to be the one having fun. That is how both of these bands are. They both just like to have fun and live life for today. They inspire me. They started off with dreams. Now they are living their dreams after much hard work and dedication. I hope to be as inspiring as them one day and live out my hopes and dreams.

Government Funded Day Care

     I think they should provide free day care for working parent. Some people may disagree with me, but these are just my opinions. Sometimes, families go through financial hardships and cannot do anything about it. Sometimes, people lose their jobs unexpectedly and cannot do anything about losing the job. It may take months before you can find another job. My opinions come from many personal experiences. When I was born, my family was very financially stable, but when I was three years old, my dad lost his job. My mom would work every day, while my dad would be gone everyday looking for a job. My mom had nowhere for my sister and I to go because we were not attending school yet. My mom did not have the extra cash to pay for a babysitter anymore. I do not think anyone should have to worry about things like this because I feel like there should always be people to help other people in need. I think it would be a great idea to offer free day care for working parents.

fam(I.L.Y)

     I know we had to be original on this assignment, and I know someone is probably thinking, "Everyone values family, that is not original." I understand this, but my family is so important to me, I just had to write about them. Every family has a story behind how they are, how they act towards each other and even how they treat just random people. My family is my world. I honestly do not know where I would be without my mom, my sister and my brother. They are the ones I go to when something is going wrong. They make me laugh like no other and can always make me smile. Even though we fight more than we should, we have better times together than another family might have. The past few months have been pretty difficult. Guess who was there for me when no one else was? The three most important people in my life. They support me, encourage me and love me for who I am. I could not ask for more because they are all perfect, even with their imperfections.

Meeting My Husband... Again ;)

     On May 26th, I went to a Red Jumpsuit Apparatus concert in which Sparks The Rescue, Namesake and Faith In A Theory all played as well. I went for my sister's birthday. We went with our friends Olivia, Hayley, Celina and Cynthia. The only bands I knew when we went were Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and Faith In A Theory. The second band to play were Sparks The Rescue. When they came out, the bass player, Mike Naran, stood right in front of us because we were in the front row. After they played their first song, I realized that he was one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen. I was fangirlin' out. Then, he looked me right in the eyes. AH! I was so excited, even though I knew it didn't mean anything. After they were done playing, the whole band was walking around just chilling. With that said, my sister and I wanted to get a picture with him, and so we did. It was the best moment of my life. A little later, I noticed that the picture was really bad. I saw that Mike was all alone listening to the other band, so I walked up to him and I asked if I could get a picture with him because there was better lighting right there. He was all for it. So, I got another picture with him which was the second best moment of my life. Then, we were talking to the guys in Faith in a Theory and they invited us to the after party. It was pretty awesome. The night soon came to an end and we went home.


     About two weeks later, I saw that Sparks The Rescue was going to be in town on July 4th. I was so excited. I asked my mom if I could go, and she said it was fine. Then, I got even more excited. The day came, and I was extremely pumped. I went with my sister. I was screaming so loud when I saw Mike. He looked RIGHT at me and laughed and waved. Oh my goodness, I was melting. They all played amazing, of course. After they played, I caught Mike and I started talking to him. I told him how amazing I thought he was and how attractive he was. After a few minutes, he had to go. He gave me a hug and went on his way. It was honestly the most perfect moment that anyone could ever experience. I am not even kidding. It was so sad when we had to leave, but it was an amazing night. That night, I tweeted him telling him how amazing he did again, and he direct messaged me and told me thank you and a bunch of other things that just made me melt inside (in a good way). This was the second best night of my life, next to the first time I met him. I cannot wait until November 24th because I will be meeting Mike AGAIN! How awesome is that?! I think it is pretty awesome. This was probably the best thing that happened to me all summer and I am okay with that because it was amazing.

Samantha

     My name is Samantha Nicole Sarvas. It means listener. I am surprised it doesn't mean rambunctious because I am very rambunctious. I feel like I live up to my name and its actual meaning. I often listen to every ones problems, stories, good things that have happened to them, their ranting that they just need to get out, or if they just want to talk to someone. Samantha is the girl version of Samuel. People call me Samantha, Sammy, Sam and a few other nicknames. I don't care if people call me any of these names except Sam. I do not really care for it because I feel like it is too much of a boy name. Don't get me wrong, I love nicknames, just not that one. I did not get my named after a family member, but my parents were imbued to name me Samantha after 1980s pop singer, Samantha Fox. When my parents named me, they came to a fork in the road and could not decide to name me Samantha or Nicole, the rudiments of naming me. The reason why my parent choose Samantha is because they did not want to be doleful and name me Nicole because I was born around the time Nicole Simpson was murdered. My siblings and my name all have an a sound at the end of our names. My sisters name is Jessica and my brothers name is Joshua. I am very happy that my parents decided to name me Samantha because I think the name Samantha is as pretty as a rose.

Rule #1 Respect

     I think the number one rule is respect. I feel like respect is the key to everything and sums up any other rule. Respect is not talking when someone else is talking, which is a rule on its own. No food in class is respecting school property. No cells phones or electronical devices are to be used in class is respecting the teacher by giving them your full attention and respecting your class mates by not distracting them with your actions. I believe every rule in school or keys to life even come down to respect. Respect others because you would want them to respect you the same way.